Can I be perfectly honest right here; right now? I’ve been struggling lately with some discouragement and anxiety over this whole cancer thing. Sometimes, I wish I had the luxury of just sticking my head in the sand and forgetting that I am a cancer patient at all. I fantasize about going in and making a deal with my Oncologist ... and the conversation goes a little like this ...
“How ‘bout we just forget this whole cancer thing ever happened.
I won’t tell anybody if you won’t tell anybody!”
Fortunately, I know that I can’t just “forget” about it. I can’t stick my head in the sand. Gotta keep moving forward, pressing in, trusting my Creator. I know that physical difficulties are as much a physical fight as they are a spiritual fight for the child of God ... a battle for the mind, a battle to stay surrendered, a battle for my focus and my worship; and, knowing all of this keeps me reaching for the One who holds ALL of my hope.
Don’t get me wrong, I’m still feeling good, aside from the usual aches and pains that we all get, and I still have a good report! Praise God! I even had a good routine appointment recently. My Doctor did the usual 6 month lab work, ordered a chest x-ray and a mammogram and then sent me on my way.
So, now I wait and, by the way, did I mention that I despise waiting? But, wait I must ... I wait for the lab results, I wait for the other two appointments, after which, I will wait for the results of the two tests that will be done at those two appointments that I’m waiting for.
Waiting! Ugh! ~ Trusting! Ah!
As I have faced my “wait” this week, I’m reminded that there is one thing I don’t have to wait for. What is that? Well, I’m glad you asked!
I don’t have to wait on the calm and comfort of my Father. I don’t have to wait on the peace that passes all understanding. I don’t have to wait for the strength that comes from prayer, submission, and daily abiding in His Word.
No, I do not have to wait on Him for these things ~ at all ... ever!
He is always there ... going before me ... shielding my way ... upholding me with His all sufficient arms ... renewing my strength ... mounting me up on wings like eagles ... exchanging my fearful thoughts for faith-filled ones. Giving me courage I did not know I could possess as I press in to Him. How good is our God!
I mentioned in my last blog that I’m memorizing scripture this year ~ two verses each month. Well, it comes as no surprise that God, in the midst of my discouragement, would lead me to my second verse of the year which is Isaiah 40: 28-31 (maybe you already know this passage) ...
Do you not know? Have you not heard?
the Everlasting God, the Lord,
the Creator of the ends of the earth
does not become weary or tired.
His understanding is inscrutable.
Though youths grow weary and tired,
and vigorous young men stumble badly
yet those who wait for the Lord will gain new strength.
They will mount up on wings like eagles,
they will run and not get tired,
they will walk and not become weary.
Is. 40: 28-31 (NAS)
So there we have it. Waiting doesn’t have to be all bad; in fact, the word “wait” in this passage means “hope in”.
So, this passage reminds us ...
the Everlasting God, the Lord, the Creator of the ends of the earth does not become weary or tired ... and those who wait for (hope in) Him will gain new strength, mounting up on wings like eagles ....
I’ll take a little of that. It’s just what I need today .... how about you?
- CIndy K
- Rock Hill, SC, United States
- "My heart is overflowing with a good theme. I recite my compositions concerning the King. My tongue is the pen of a ready writer." (Psalm 45:1) This verse has become a life verse for me. As I continue to walk it out, I realize this journey as a breast cancer survivor has changed me but does not define me. I remain the loved, chosen, redeemed and blessed child of the living God who supplies me daily with more hope, strength, grace and courage than I ever dreamed I could possess! God has been so good to me ... indeed my tongue is the pen of a ready writer ... poised to tell the story of my faithful Father! I love Him so!